Confused. moody.

hm. Isaac and i have separated for about one month. This bgr lasted for one month and one week. I still could rmb e date whn i and him broke up. It's on e 18/08/06... can't forget. Within the one month whn i'm single. there's people who likes me. but i couldn't accept anione till last sunday. One of my old sch mate. We contacted each other, it feels totally different. During e time in sch, we dun talk neither play. but surprisingly we sms-ed on dat dayy. The next dayy, the whole day. My mind kept thinkin of him. I really dunno whyy. I also dunno why i missed him so much. Really.Till today whn he said he want me to be someone more den a friend. i gave a tot. I was happy. I wonder why am i so happy den i realise i'm interested in him. GosH! but i dunno will we go steady cos halfway whn we msged he stop replying. hahas. guess dun think so much ish better. Leave everything up to God bahx. hahas. Cheer up girl! >< hais. i wan a long lasting bgr. dun wan a short one. =))

surprised..

i really dunno how tu start today. I dunno why, things must always go tu e extreme end den i noe how imporatant ish dat person tu me. Like, goin one month with isaac le. till today den i noe how important am i tu him. I hurt him again and again but he forgive me. in another point i noe dat hurt already hurt. although he ish willin tu forgive, e hurt ish still dere. I really dunno how tu apologise tu him. hais. Today's conversation with him really wake me up. i really dunno how long. i dunno why everytime and small hurt, i'll hide. Maybe tu protect myself bahx.
hais. gotta go. tml continue and now i could surely sae he loves me!! =))

disappointed..

things were sweet at e beginning whn i'm with him. but things went tough(bitter). In all ways i tried tu make him happy, in ways i tried tu pamper him. but i'm struggling here does he noe?? Whn times i needed him, he ish missing in no where.but whn he needed company, i always right beside him. jux a call and i be with him. I put things behind him, i put him in e first place and i dun expect a return. In someways, i'm lost again. I dunno wad's love again. I dun wanna lose him, i can't deny dat i'm afraid of getting hurt again, i dun deny dat i afraid i'll lose him. but wad can i do?? I do all things tu show dat i cherish him. but he always disappoint me. i really dunno wad tu do or sae. Does he really cares about me?? In many ways, i dun see him care about me but jux care about himself more. He never did care about how i feel. Promise he make, he always break it. Not once, not twice but more den dat. In a mess bahx. write till here. No more mood. sorry. buaix.

disappointed..

things were sweet at e beginning whn i'm with him. but things went tough(bitter). In all ways i tried tu make him happy, in ways i tried tu pamper him. but i'm struggling here does he noe?? Whn times i needed him, he ish missing in no where.but whn he needed company, i always right beside him. jux a call and i be with him. I put things behind him, i put him in e first place and i dun expect a return. In someways, i'm lost again. I dunno wad's love again. I dun wanna lose him, i can't deny dat i'm afraid of getting hurt again, i dun deny dat i afraid i'll lose him. but wad can i do?? I do all things tu show dat i cherish him. but he always disappoint me. i really dunno wad tu do or sae. Does he really cares about me?? In many ways, i dun see him care about me but jux care about himself more. He never did care about how i feel. Promise he make, he always break it. Not once, not twice but more den dat. In a mess bahx. write till here. No more mood. sorry. buaix.

disappointed..

things were sweet at e beginning whn i'm with him. but things went tough(bitter). In all ways i tried tu make him happy, in ways i tried tu pamper him. but i'm struggling here does he noe?? Whn times i needed him, he ish missing in no where.but whn he needed company, i always right beside him. jux a call and i be with him. I put things behind him, i put him in e first place and i dun expect a return. In someways, i'm lost again. I dunno wad's love again. I dun wanna lose him, i can't deny dat i'm afraid of getting hurt again, i dun deny dat i afraid i'll lose him. but wad can i do?? I do all things tu show dat i cherish him. but he always disappoint me. i really dunno wad tu do or sae. Does he really cares about me?? In many ways, i dun see him care about me but jux care about himself more. He never did care about how i feel. Promise he make, he always break it. Not once, not twice but more den dat. In a mess bahx. write till here. No more mood. sorry. buaix.

disappointed..

things were sweet at e beginning whn i'm with him. but things went tough(bitter). In all ways i tried tu make him happy, in ways i tried tu pamper him. but i'm struggling here does he noe?? Whn times i needed him, he ish missing in no where.but whn he needed company, i always right beside him. jux a call and i be with him. I put things behind him, i put him in e first place and i dun expect a return. In someways, i'm lost again. I dunno wad's love again. I dun wanna lose him, i can't deny dat i'm afraid of getting hurt again, i dun deny dat i afraid i'll lose him. but wad can i do?? I do all things tu show dat i cherish him. but he always disappoint me. i really dunno wad tu do or sae. Does he really cares about me?? In many ways, i dun see him care about me but jux care about himself more. He never did care about how i feel. Promise he make, he always break it. Not once, not twice but more den dat. In a mess bahx. write till here. No more mood. sorry. buaix.

disappointed..

things were sweet at e beginning whn i'm with him. but things went tough(bitter). In all ways i tried tu make him happy, in ways i tried tu pamper him. but i'm struggling here does he noe?? Whn times i needed him, he ish missing in no where.but whn he needed company, i always right beside him. jux a call and i be with him. I put things behind him, i put him in e first place and i dun expect a return. In someways, i'm lost again. I dunno wad's love again. I dun wanna lose him, i can't deny dat i'm afraid of getting hurt again, i dun deny dat i afraid i'll lose him. but wad can i do?? I do all things tu show dat i cherish him. but he always disappoint me. i really dunno wad tu do or sae. Does he really cares about me?? In many ways, i dun see him care about me but jux care about himself more. He never did care about how i feel. Promise he make, he always break it. Not once, not twice but more den dat. In a mess bahx. write till here. No more mood. sorry. buaix.

I fall deeply in love with eu le laogong. =))

i'm feeling pink today.. hees! I'm falling deeply in love! hm.. let's see wad i did today bahx. today morning went tu sch den after sch go home and never went out.. hahas. In sch, during chinese, we have kite flyin and for PE, we had soccer. hahas. whn i was playin soccer, i tot of isaac. cos he love soccer. =)) He has been always in my mind. <3>,<>
Avril laopo misses Isaac laogong. <3>

falling deeply in love <3

it's been long since i reali get into a serious relationship le.. not as in serious la.. as in both partner reali cares about each other. The past few de .. ish either i dun like dat guyy at all or e guyy dun realli like me but jux ask me tu stead jux hopin tu have some sexual intercourse. I'm happy in e bgr i'm in now, reali i do. Though sometimes dere still suspect, still kinda abit lack of trust. n sometimes jealousy comes inbetween but hahas. I'm happy with him. After e happy times with condrey. I haven't been felt loved. Really never till now. I realli hope this bgr will last. Really. After condrey, i've never been so willing tu give things up cos of a person. bcos of my stead now, i didn't go out at all. I stayed at home and talk tu him on e fone. I miss him realli.. i noe i sux at cherishin but i reali wanna cherish him. I want him tu stay in my life. He fills my mind and heart when i'm bored(i miss him). I know God will guild us. I wanna stay by his side every second every moment every minute. Although he is in army now, i'm willing to wait. I'm serious, I believe in God also i fall in love with my laogong le. Lao gong , if eu got e chance tu come tu my blog, i wan eu tu noe, I wanna wait for eu tu come out of army. =)) i miss eu laogong. fall deeply in love with eu le. <3 I'm so fortunate!!

it's me agian. hahas.

hm. jux came back from sch.. feel so tired. later still gotta work.. >.<>_< buaix buaix..

God bless me.. and i wanna follow God whole heartedly..

It's been long since i came here tu blog. After so long, i'm kinda tired. In fact i broke up with vinn for quite sometimes. From dat time, i have a few stead till now i still have lo.. hahas. Now, i'm with a guyy name Iz. 10/07/06 .. this is when our story starts. I really pray that this relationship will really last very very long. >< before him, i actually patch with condrey before. It didn't work out. Before he go to malaysia, how sweet and nice is he, cos of dat, i reali did tot we will have a happy ending. but when he came back from malaysia. Things really change.. he change 360. He gave me cold shoulders, he gave me fake smile, he hurt me lots. I take in as how he treat me till a day whn i couldn't take it animore, i talk tu him.. he did change. but onli a bit.. and it seems like forcing him. So after dat i broke up with him. I didn't noe why ish he like this when he ish e one who ask me for a patch back.. i reali dunno.. dat time, my heart realli shattered.I cried for a few days. Now, i'm happy with who i am with. I wanna follow God whole heartedly. I no longer willing tu put God behind my stead. I believe God will protect me. And if deardearx iz.. if one day, eu got this chance of coming my this blog, i wanna tell eu sth. I wan tu last long with eu.. I'm serious! *muackx* *huggx* i wanna be e one dat tu wait for eu tu come out of army! i miss eu deardearx! =))